I'm late

This was supposed to be Friday's post. I have a lot of reasons I didn’t post this on time but no real excuse, but just in case you’re interested one reason is I simply forgot. Another is home is kind of stressful, I have to re-learn to live in "Mom's" house again where her word is final. That is a difficult thing to do for someone who has been independent for some time. It really gives me a chance to live life without expectations, they say expectations are premeditated resentments, and resentments are like holding onto a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at somebody else. I’m the one getting burned in the end.

For the love of Mutt

My mother has this dog, it’s a Shar Pei and Pit-bull mix, 3 years old, and they got the dog as my dad was diagnosed with cancer. Due to the amount of time my family had to spend on my dying dad the dog has not been given the attention that it deserves and my little brother claims the dog to be his and totally neglects it. If I were to have it my way I'd find her a new home. Since I cannot have it my way and I can tell it really bothers my mom to own an animal that is more of a decoration than a pet, I volunteered my time to take care of her and be her buddy.  I have just recently moved back in to the house with them, for moral support, and never have owned a pet of my own. By volunteering my time I am going to have to learn how to do a few things. First I have to learn to bathe her, which shouldn’t be to difficult she is a big dog but I'm still bigger. The next thing is I am going to have to learn how to deal with totally taking care of and loving this animal entirely by myself without her being "my" dog, which will be the difficult thing to do. Then of course there is the discipline I will have to gain in giving her routine walks, vet visits, and classes. All in all I am excited to have this opportunity.

Change is constant

“This is rather different from the receptions I used to get fifty years ago. They threw things at me then but they were not roses.”  - Susan B. Anthony

This makes me wonder what life would be like without the people who dedicate their lives to fighting the resistance to change. We would still be cavemen, right?

Also why do we all resist change? Change is the only thing that is inevitable and constant. For some reason we all still fight it. I used to believe that I strongly supported change, but after I looked at my motives I noticed that I only supported change I agreed in and the change I could control. Today I keep in mind that it was not “human” power that made it possible for us all to exist, so why believe I can control the outcome of life. It doesn’t matter how cool we are or what social class we are, on a higher level we have all reached the highest rank we can achieve, “people”.  I’m trying to live today with putting my efforts into bettering my quality of life. This is a new active change in my thinking and behavior so I’m nowhere near where I believe I could be, but it is progress not perfection. I do not believe as humans we can consciously understand why we are truly here. I leave the results of life in the care of a higher power. Albert Einstein believed that “No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it.” So long as I remember that I am not in control of existence and live by spiritual principals and keep my side of the street clean I will have a successful quality life.

Life happens

I have been doing great in the IS 101 class so far and this weekend has been tough for me to get any work done. My car is parked at a restaurant  with a leaky transmission so I had to ask my aunt to drop me off at campus to do my SAM assignments. Ive done my best to study. I didn't realize just how dependent my life was on the car. Even with all the stress about getting work done I did have something pretty cool happen to me over the weekend. I have been asked to carry a message of hope into a detox treatment facility. Despite all my anxiety, I am extremely honored.

Glad 2nd week is nearing an end.

I have been able to keep up with the class so far. There is our 2nd quiz today I have done all my homework so I am not sweating it too much. After class I will be spending the weekend at Arizona Charlie's. My Grandma is borderline gambleholic and gets comped free rooms all the time. Although my living space will have relocated for the weekend my life will not be affected too much, I still have all my responsibilities.

Busy weekend.

I had a pretty busy weekend. I spent alot of time with my family at my moms house because my grandma is visiting from Sacramento. I enjoyed a day at the new Wet N' Wild attraction. I had heard alot of good and bad about the new location. From my experience the only thing I have to say that is negative is they ran out of tubes by the time I got there. Other than that what can you expect for a first summer open? I asked questions about if they plan to expand over the winter. I recieved alot of positive feed back from that. Cant wait till next year. I hear there is going to be another waterpark attraction built by next year too. What is Las Vegas with out a water park? I am  glad it is finally back open.

Dear Blog.
My first day of summer school was interesting for me. I have never been to a summer course, I have felt that an accelerated class would be too difficult or fast paced for me to be successful. After the first day of Mr. Wu's class I feel that a class with little room to fall behind is exactly what I need to get back into the feel of being a student. I am ready to take on the challenge.